I don't want Mothers Day to come. Does that sound bad? Everywhere I turn something is saying "Remember your Mom". It's on the radio, on TV, in the grocery store, and I can't get away from it. Fathers Day doesn't feel like this. Maybe it's because I'm a mother or maybe it's because I talked to my mom more often then my dad, (I was close to my dad but not as close as I was to my mom) maybe it's because I can focus on my husband on Father's Day. I don't know why. But I don't think I like Mother's Day, at least not this year. I'm not trying to be negative or get sympathy. I'm trying to be real. I'm trying to be transparent and vulnerable. I want people to know that sometimes my life sucks! It really sucks! I'm not going to go into each and everyone of my struggles, some are very personal, and a lot worse than being sad on Mother's Day. However, I want people to know I don't have a perfect life because I'm hoping they can see me lean on God in spite of my troubles. I'm going to fail at times, I'm NOT perfect, quite the contrary! But, God is my refuge and I'm learning how to take comfort in Him.
I love the verses in Ephesians 6:13-18, about putting on the armor of God, but, I've never really thought much about the verses before that. Verses 11 and 12 say, "Put on the full armor of God, so that you'll be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places." NASB. I'm really starting to see darkness trying to take over my life and I'm not going to let it.
Luke 10:19 says, "Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing will injure you." ESV.
I'm not going to like Mothers Day this year but, I'm going to love on my babies anyway. I'm going to make the best of it because I know I can tread on all the power of the enemy and nothing will injure me.
Happy Mothers Day in Heaven Mom! Give Micah's new baby boy, up there with you, an extra squeeze for me!
